Sad and Bad
I am back and I am still in India.
Oh, it is so depressing! No, not being in India. I love India. The fact that Hubby’s gone back and I am still here is what is driving me crazy. Have you ever been told to not expect too much from life? I haven’t and may be that is the reason why I keep on getting surprised at every other turn I take. I expect too much and always hope that things will work out exactly the way I want them to go! (Don’t we all?) I was hoping, praying even, that Z! and I would go back together. I was told that there were no seats available on the flight and that there was no chance of me getting a seat but… I pestered Z into trying harder than he already was. We waited and we waited but.. in vain. Z! had to go back and he went back without me.
I doubt if it bothered him as much as it bothers me but, the truth is I feel so totally crushed! 🙁
What does it matter now if I go two weeks later or two months later? Z! went back alone and once again, we travel seperately! No matter how much I try to get it off my mind… no matter how much I try to cheer myself up, it just makes me feel so terrible and teary eyed.
*sigh*
Oh well… such is life! We never get what we want. We only get what we need!
